My perception of Good News has definitely changed!

Short one this week!

I found out on Friday that I may have a B12 deficiency and I was so excited! There’s a chance I can have a course of injections that will give me more energy! Made me realise just what my life has become! I’m off to have more blood tests tomorrow to have it confirmed.

Doc also thinks that one of my tablets is causing my upset tummy so she’s weaning me off them over the next few weeks to see if it makes a difference – another positive if it’s something that simple.

All in all things are good just now, I have 2 four day weeks in work, 5 days left of doing a particular job that I hate, which means I can actually get back to doing the job I love, the weight is coming off slowly and surely, and I’ve got a week away to look forward to, as well as my birthday!

Happy times!

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A Positive Week Needed

Had a bit of a crappy week last week! Had a really upset tummy, and very little energy or motivation!

Worked from home all week and pretty much avoided as many people as possible.

Had some tests at the doctors, and just waiting for the results to see if I have an infection or not! Because of some of the tablets I’m on, if it is an infection, it will floor me! Such fun!

Anyway – my eating wasn’t completely on plan, didn’t eat anywhere near enough fruit and veg, and had two takeaways. I did pick the “healthy” option though, so a small victory there.

I was dreading Saturday but I actually lost a 1lb! More than happy! Definitely felt like I’d been let off with that one.

So off I went to get my hair cut, happy as a happy thing, and my hairdresser worked his usual magic on me. I always without fail feel gorgeous when I leave him, even if that feeling only lasts a while, it is such a good feeling! I’ve gone blonde as well, which is a bit of a shock, but hey, I’ve never been known to stay the same colour for too long!

This week – I’m going to make a really big effort! Food will be good, I will go into the office, and get some extra steps in, and I will stay as happy as possible!

I’ve had a bit of a tidy up too! Cleared some more books away, cried a bit when I put my running books away, but I will get them out again one day, I have to, I can’t think that I will never run again.

Looks like we are about to go into autumn very quickly, weather is horrible, but that just means snugly nights, and warming casseroles, all good!

And fingers crossed, my bug doesn’t last much longer!

Have a good week everyone

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London! 

We had our trip to London at the beginning of the week!  And what a trip it was!  I love London!  I love the buzz, the hustle & bustle of it all.  I love the variety of people!  I love the speed of the travel, and the busyness of it all.

We travelled mid afternoon on Monday, but made a day of it having lunch out at one of our favourite pubs first.

You will gather from this post that I’m a very excitable traveller and just love holidays! 

The train trip from Liverpool to London was quiet, non eventful, but lots of people watching was done, and snacking!  I have to have snacks on a train for some reason.  

And then we reached Euston and my fun began!  The Tube!   The experience is just amazing!  I could quite happily jump on and off all day travelling to different stations, up and down the escalators, more people watching, but off we went to the hotel instead.

We were staying out by The Excel!  Hotel was very basic, but spotlessly clean, we’d bought some sandwiches and had a picnic on the bed!  Then went out for a walk – I was tired, so wanted an early night and decided to just explore locally.

Close by was Royal Victoria Dock, a lovely area,   several small cafes & restaurants, lots of posh flats overlooking the dock, more people watching – there were lots of joggers out and about, and I suffer from running envy, and watch with fascination different styles.

There was a bridge over the dock, very odd bridge, it looked like it was suspended in the air.  Either side was a staircase within a tower, and the bridge hung above this.  We climbed up, mainly to see the view, only to discover that it overlooked London City Airport runway!  That was me gone!!  I love planes!!!  So very much!  I didn’t want to ever leave that bridge.  Watching the planes take off and fly over us. I’ve taken one or two (????) pictures!!   Made my night!  

Next day we started off early after a lovely cooked breakfast.  I’m scared of heights, but somewhere in my mixed up mind I’d come to the conclusion that heights can’t be as bad as what I’d gone through in hospital and thought I’d put it to the test while away, so agreed to go on a cable car over the Thames and on The Eye!  Mad woman that I am.   Cable car was fine, with some good views along the Thames!  We then jumped on the Thames Clipper – a water bus that stops off at various different places along the river, and went to The Eye.  Queued for about 15 minutes which wasn’t long enough for my fear to strike.  And I enjoyed most of that too.  Stood up by the window taking pictures, and it was only when we were at the top that I got a bit spooked, but kept a death grip on the rail until we started coming back down again!   Hubby said he was very proud of me! 

Then the madness began.  We had about 7 hours to see the rest of London and see it we did!  All on foot!  We walked from West Minster to the Tower of London, with everything in between.  By the time we got to the Tower I was in agony.  Feet were killing me, legs were cramping, I was so hot and tired it was untrue!   But a sit down for half an hour and a cup of tea and I was fine.  

And then back on the Tube, more snacks purchased and the long journey home.

Got home just after midnight.  Had the most perfect time, loved every second, and would do it all again!  Possibly next year when I’ve recovered from this one!  

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Positivity! 

I read today that depression is one of the symptoms of Lupus!  And it stupidly made me feel better about it!  I have no idea why!  After all the stuff I’ve been through these last 8 months, it’s hardly surprising that it’s all caught up with me, and I need a bit of help to get my positivity back.  But I actually feel guilty for being depressed.  Things are finally starting to improve for me, and while I do have to still deal with the day to day problems, I am getting better at managing them, and my meds seem to be settling down and working now, so I should be as happy as a happy thing!  

But anyway!  That’s just my mixed up head!  

Another example of it – yesterday I told hubby that I’m actually grateful I went through what I did!  I follow a lot of Lupus sites, and so many people say they have trouble being diagnosed, and their doctors don’t take them seriously, and take forever to prescribe medication for them!  At least I was diagnosed very quickly as I was in hospital and they had to figure out what was up with me, and treat me!  

And another good thing – we are now off work for two weeks!  Hoping to get out and about a lot, build my legs up again, and hopefully – with not sitting down at my desk all day – lose a bit of weight too!

Hope you all have a good week

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Excited Muchly! 

I am so excited just now! We are finishing work next Friday for two weeks and we have booked an overnight stay in London!  

I love London!  And it’s years since we have been to stay.

I go there a lot with work, but don’t actually see anything of it!  Just pass through!  

I have asked if I can pack already!! 

We have booked to go on the Eye as well! 😳.  I’m still not sure what possessed me to agree to that one!  I’m petrified of heights!  I’ve also said I’m going on the Emirate cable car!  

I’m a bit nervous about it, as it’s going to be a long couple of days, with lots of walking, but mainly I am giddy with excitement.

Just got to get through the next 5 days – which are going to be busy! The boss is up for a few days, and then I need to make sure I’m up to date before going off.

And an update on my mood – much more settled!  Been over a week now since I’ve cried!  So that’s a positive thing! 

Hope you’re all good! 
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Up and Down

Well, after a sh*tty few weeks at my lowest for a long time I made an appointment with my Doctor, I’d spoken to her on the phone the day before – so she knew what to expect, and she had the tissues ready.  I sat and sobbed, I let it all out, how fed up I am, how annoyed I am with myself, all that crap I’ve been through and now I get depressed!  But I jut don’t know how to get out of this mood, I’m tired so I can’t run, I don’t actually want to walk much, never mind run, I’m crying constantly, I’m eating my way through it, I’m putting weight on, but fat weight not muscly weight which is getting me down too.  And I’m then comfort eating.  I really don’t remember ever feeling this sad, and negative.  I’m a positive person,  I don’t want to be negative.

So after 15 minutes of sobbing, we decided I was going on anti depressants, with an appointment to go back in 4 weeks, to see how I’m doing.

I’ve been on them a week now, and the side effects have been awful.  I have had the worst tummy ever, and I’ve wanted to hide.  Luckily I’ve been able to work from home, so stayed close to the bathroom, and didn’t have to deal with people, and I got lots of work done, which made me feel calmer.  And things are starting to settle down now, and I am starting to feel better already!  I haven’t cried once all week.  

On Friday I went to the hospital! Apparently I’m a little miracle! All my nasties in my blood have settled, and my kidney function has improved by 20%! He’s really happy with how well I’ve done and is going to reduce my steroids so that I won’t be taking any within 6 months!  I still have to deal with the day to day crap Lupus brings and my dodgy leg, but I am sooooo very happy my kidney is ok just now! 

Today I decided I’m ready to get back to my happy positive self now!   This morning we went for a walk, just a 20 minute one, but it was a start, and we have spent the rest of the day in the garden!   I’ve discovered it’s very therapeutic weeding while sat down, and shuffling along the path on my bum!  
We’ve eaten outside all day, watching the bees and butterflies fluttering about, listening to the birds singing, and the neighbours children playing in their garden!  
And I’m going to make an effort to go for a walk every evening – I’m knackered anyway, I might as well have a proper reason to be!  

I’ve got 2 weeks left in work till our fortnight off, and I want to be back to happy by then so we can enjoy our time off without me being miserable. 

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Putting my Goals Out There! 

I’m struggling with sticking to a proper & regular exercise plan, so I’m declaring my goals publically in the hope that being accountable will make me shift myself.
So my goals for this week

  1. To do 30 minutes of exercise ever day – except Saturday
  2. To stick with in my calorie allowance

I’m just doing this week by week, one week at a time for now, till I get back into a routine

Benefits

  1. I will be happier
  2. I will sleep better
  3. I will like my legs again
  4. I won’t be in so much pain
  5. I will lose weight 
  6. I will tone up
  7. I will be happier – this one needs mentioning twice as it’s the most important one, and exercise does make me so much happier.

I will let you know next week how I got on.

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My week off!

So my week off didn’t go to plan!   

Turns out I can’t do as much as I used to! But never mind, still did lots, and still had a wonderful, relaxing break! 
 
I also promised pictures, so pictures I will add! 

We took the week off as it was hubby’s birthday, and we celebrated with lots of food!  Meals out & takeaways!  


We visited two local seaside reaorts!


 
Played on a pirate ship

Had the nicest ice cream – Jaffa cake flavour


Played on a swing


 Celebrated Mum’s 70th birthday – with more food


And slept lots!    Most of our days out were actually mornings out, followed by a snooze, which has actually made our time appear longer.

Oh and I got a new Tattoo!  A purple butterfly to signify Lupus awareness

So, yes, a good week off, and really don’t want to go back tomorrow! 

Unfortunately the only lottery win I had was a lucky dip ticket! 

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