Slow week done!

Week 4

15 stone 10lb.

3 stone 10lb to goal

-1

23000 steps

Been a really slow week on all fronts this week. And was quite surprised to lose 1lb, didn’t feel like I’d put anywhere near enough effort into it.

Been crazy busy at work, month end! Which has meant long & odd hours, also means my brain doesn’t switch off properly so my sleep is poor too.

And I’m really not good with no sleep!

I’ve barely done any steps – a whole 20000 less than I have been doing.

I’ve stayed on track pretty much all week, up till Friday anyway.

Friday is breakfast day in work – I try and pick reasonably well – bacon and mushrooms on brown toast – and it’s the most perfect breakfast. But I don’t normally eat much else other than fruit for the rest of the day as it’s really filling.

This Friday though!!! Just after breakfast we got an email! Pizza for lunch! And I’m sorry – but I just can’t resist pizza, even if it is the day before weigh in.

3 slices later, and a chicken skewer – I was full.

I did feel guilty about it briefly, but it didn’t last long. Yes – I want to lose weight, but it’s got to be in a manageable way, in a way that I will enjoy, and in a way I will stick to, and if that means having pizza once a month in work – I will do it without guilt.

Here’s to a better next week!

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A Tough Week!

Week 3

15 stone 11lb.

3 stone 11lb to goal

-2.5

43000 steps

This has been a really tough week for a few reasons!

I think the previous week caught up on me and I was so very tired, and just a little bit run down!

Sunday evening my lips started tingling! A sure sign the dreaded coldsores were about to strike!

It’s been over 2 years since I’ve had 1, and I honestly believed I was done with them! But they reminded me with a vengeance I wasn’t!

Monday morning saw me wake with fat lips! 4 massive, stinging ugly cold sores, and I just wanted to cry!

All day I could feel them! It felt like I had flash lights on my lips, sending out this sign “everyone, come look at my horrible, infected mouth”

All week I’ve felt so down about them, they’re at the horrible scabby stage now when every time I knock them they bleed.

I just wish they would go away!

It’s stupid – the sh*t I’ve been through, and a scabby mouth almost floored me. But my confidence is really low at the moment, so it doesn’t take much to knock it out of me!

On top of this hubby has been working 10 hour days which has meant I’ve got home first, and made the lunches for the following day.

I never realised such a small thing could be that bit too much, the amount of energy it’s taken out of me to do that has been eye opening! 1 spoon too many obviously.

(For those that don’t know about spoonies – check out the spoon theory- it kind of makes sense!

https://butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/

Anyway – all this has meant I’ve not made the best choices food wise! It’s not too been horrific, but not very nutritional either!

Breakfast & lunches have been fine, but teas have been something quick and easy, something on toast or a sandwich! Friday night I actually had hot cross buns for tea!

So I was more than happy with this weeks weight loss!

Next week I plan to be better!

This weekend has been lovely! I had SW cooked breakfast, and steak for tea yesterday. Even had jelly & custard dessert! Today it’s my favourite – a full roast dinner – SW friendly obviously. Also making soup for the week – I find taking some in with my lunch stops me snacking on syns.

Just got to keep at it for the week and I will be sorted.

And I’ve slept lots! Which was much needed.

Hubby isn’t working long hours either – so it’s all positive!

See you next week!

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Breaking myself in gently!

Week 2.

15 stone 13.5lb.

3 stone 13.5lb to goal

-2lb

43000 steps

Well week 1 was a bit hit and miss, each day started off well & ended not so well!

My daily syns ranged from 13 to 33, most days being closer to the 30 than than the 13!

But it’s a starting point, and I’m happy with that.

The boss was up from London, and we were busy, so by the time I got home I had no brain power left, and although I had planned my meals for the week, I didn’t have the energy to convince myself to have them. My appraisal went well though. I hate appraisals, I hate having to talk about myself.

An added bit of support for me – Hubby went to the Doctor and they talked about losing weight as it’s getting him down so he’s now on track with me. Doctor has referred him to SW, but I think that’s most probably a step too far for him just now, he needs to work on that idea.

I’m so happy though – I do worry about him so much, and it will do him the world of good to lose some weight with me.

This week should be better. I’ve prepped lunches! We were supposed to be having minestrone soup, but it turned out a bit thick so we are now having vegetable pasta. Looks nice.

Teas are planned out, but it’s going to be a tough week as hubby is working late which means I will be cooking which is never successful.

But let’s see what the scales say.

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It wasn’t pretty!

Week 1.

16stone 1.5lb.

4 stone 1.5lb to goal

15lb +.

48000 steps

Well I went! And it was as bad as I’d known it would be! 15lb on since I last went before Christmas!

But I was ok,

I never wobbled when I stepped on the scales

I never wobbled while I helped out with the newbies

I never wobbled as I sold the raffle tickets

And all was good!

Until our consultant came to me first, and started talking about what a tough couple of months I’d had!

I told her – don’t – I’ll cry, but hey ho! We are there to share, and I cried!

Rest of the class was fine, everyone had done well, and as always I was proud of them!

And I love seeing them all and having a natter!

Rest of the day was spent coming to terms with how far I’ve got to go, I’ve actually got to lose 12.5lb before I get back to my original start weight!

But I’m determined this time. I read something the other day that the main cause of death fir us Lupies is actually weight related issues, and I quite like living so the weight is coming off!

I’ve been out for a walk both days, today I even jogged for a bit, which was THE most amazing feeling!

Soup & lunches prepared for the week, evening meals planned!

This week will be a success!

Enjoy yours, whatever you’re up to!

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Week 1 didn’t go to plan!

Yesterday was bad!

I’ve not slept properly the last couple of nights as I’ve been stressy over a few things – work, my weight, my pains, so I was in a bit of a state!

I also knew I was going to have put over a stone on at weigh in, and knowing that I had to go and face up to that officially wasn’t helping with my mood.

Anyway – I got ready, went to wait for the bus and the stupid thing didn’t turn up! As I was going just for weigh in, I had no spare time to get there any other way so didn’t go.

We then went to our local beach, had breakfast, went for a walk for an hour, did a bit of shopping and came home

The beach is my calm place, I love being there! I took lots of pictures, breathed in the sea air, and thought lots.

And that’s when I cried!

I cried lots, I broke down. I just sobbed uncontrollably for 30 minutes. I cried it all out! I cried until there was nothing left.

I think I got it out of my system! I hope I got it out of my system! Till next time anyway! I do have a meltdown from time to time, and yesterday was one of those times.

Anyway – the rest of the week has been ok, my food had been reasonably good, and I’d got almost 40000 steps in. I’ve planned all of next week too. I’ve actually lost 8lb unofficially since last Tuesday so at least delaying the official one may go in my favour.

Until next week …..

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It’s been a while!

3 months to be precise!

It’s been a strange few months, and I’ve struggled with it. Trying to get my meds right, and finding the right balance between doing things, and sleeping.

Everything had taken a bit of a back step while I’ve been getting my head together, and I’m now suffering with the extra weight I’ve put on.

But I do feel ready to take control of that again. It’s time to start eating properly, lose weight and get as fit as I can.

Ultimately it’s going to make my life easier, and the Lupus more manageable so it’s got to be worth it, and this time it’s more than just vanity.

I’m going to need lots of support, so I plan on using my blog to write up my weekly ups and downs. My weekly weight loss – fingers crossed, my weekly steps, how I’m feeling, my good and bad days – things like that!

I’m also going to give my all to Slimming World. I go to weigh in every Saturday, and stay to class, so it will be every Sunday I do my update here.

I’m going to be as positive as I can about this, and that should bring about the results I want.

My first weigh in is next Saturday so until then…..

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A Positive Week Needed

Had a bit of a crappy week last week! Had a really upset tummy, and very little energy or motivation!

Worked from home all week and pretty much avoided as many people as possible.

Had some tests at the doctors, and just waiting for the results to see if I have an infection or not! Because of some of the tablets I’m on, if it is an infection, it will floor me! Such fun!

Anyway – my eating wasn’t completely on plan, didn’t eat anywhere near enough fruit and veg, and had two takeaways. I did pick the “healthy” option though, so a small victory there.

I was dreading Saturday but I actually lost a 1lb! More than happy! Definitely felt like I’d been let off with that one.

So off I went to get my hair cut, happy as a happy thing, and my hairdresser worked his usual magic on me. I always without fail feel gorgeous when I leave him, even if that feeling only lasts a while, it is such a good feeling! I’ve gone blonde as well, which is a bit of a shock, but hey, I’ve never been known to stay the same colour for too long!

This week – I’m going to make a really big effort! Food will be good, I will go into the office, and get some extra steps in, and I will stay as happy as possible!

I’ve had a bit of a tidy up too! Cleared some more books away, cried a bit when I put my running books away, but I will get them out again one day, I have to, I can’t think that I will never run again.

Looks like we are about to go into autumn very quickly, weather is horrible, but that just means snugly nights, and warming casseroles, all good!

And fingers crossed, my bug doesn’t last much longer!

Have a good week everyone

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Welcome to September!

First things first! Two weeks in to Slimming World and I’ve lost 8lb! Got my first half stone award! And I couldn’t be happier about it!

It has been relatively easy! During the week we are keeping it very simple, ready meals and jacket potatoes! Weekend I’m cooking meals! They have been so simple, and tasty! And hubby is happy with it too!

The rest of the group, are really nice too, can see me making some good friends there!

I’ve also started a “September Self Care” month with a Lupus site I follow! There’s a new “challenge” every day designed to look after and love yourself. I like this! Could be a bit rough some days though, but I’m really going to try hard.

http://www.spoonietalk.com/self-care-september/?utm_campaign=shareaholic&utm_medium=email_this&utm_source=email

Struggling with my health just now though – that sounds a stupid statement as I struggle every day with the Lupus – but this is more. I’ve got such an upset tummy, have had for a week now, and this weekend has been awful! Going to work from home tomorrow and get an appointment at the Docs! Sure it’s nothing to be concerned about, but just a little niggle in the back of my mind is thinking it’s the Lupus attacking another part of my body! So I just need to check it out for reassurance if nothing else!

Anyway – hope you all have a good week!

Much love

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Taking Some Control Back!

It’s been a messy few weeks! Β Getting back to work after our holiday, putting more and more weight on, being incredibly busy and unbelievably tired.

I’ve struggled!

But I’ve decided I’m not going to let it get the better of me!

Time to get back to being as healthy as I can.

I’m always happier when I eat well, and I’m hoping as I lose weight I will be able to exercise more, and I’m definitely happier then.

I’ve Β done a bit of research into eating for Lupus, and your bog standard diets out there. Β I know I’m not strong enough emotionally to do this on my own, so had to find a group that was as close to what I needed as possible and Slimming World seems to tick most of the boxes.

I’m “lucky” as I’m over weight, my Doctor referred me, which means I get 12 weeks free membership, and I’m hoping in that time, I get my head round it properly and get into a routine, and most importantly fall in love with it, and the benefits it offers me.

Thats the plan anyway.

I went to my first class yesterday, had my new members meeting, got all my information, and got weighed. Β Set my ultimate target, and my 10% target, and went on my way. Β Nice group, everyone seems friendly, and of course, all there for the same reason.

This week is a bit of a convenience week – lots of SW ready meals, just to give me the time to prepare, and read up about it, and prepare my menu for the week.

I’ve done that this morning, spent about an hour going through my books, and looking online and I now have a full week menu, ready for my online shop on Wednesday.

First impression – I can eat an awful lot!

Been out out for a walk too, for about an hour, I need to be more active! Β  But small steps!

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Putting my Goals Out There!Β 

I’m struggling with sticking to a proper & regular exercise plan, so I’m declaring my goals publically in the hope that being accountable will make me shift myself.
So my goals for this week

  1. To do 30 minutes of exercise ever day – except Saturday
  2. To stick with in my calorie allowance

I’m just doing this week by week, one week at a time for now, till I get back into a routine

Benefits

  1. I will be happier
  2. I will sleep better
  3. I will like my legs again
  4. I won’t be in so much pain
  5. I will lose weight 
  6. I will tone up
  7. I will be happier – this one needs mentioning twice as it’s the most important one, and exercise does make me so much happier.

I will let you know next week how I got on.

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